Single Forever

So I know I’ve done posts about how sorry men are and how I’m still in love with my ex, but now I am going to write about the truth. While those post are very true, this one right here is the gospel. I will be single forever. No, seriously. And this isn’t an independent, fuck men type of single forever. This is a plain I’m going to be single forever. I already know what you’re going to say. “That’s not true,” “You’ll find your soul mate,” “You never know what can happen,” yeah yeah blah blah blah. I know the type of woman that I am. I am extremely impatient. I don’t have time for the back and forth that comes with relationships. I don’t have time to go out on fifty million dates just to figure out if you are worth my time. I don’t have time for the flirting and the other foolishness. I really just don’t want to deal with it.

Besides being impatient, I have extreme control issues. As a single mother, I am used to being the one that figures everything out from start to finish. I do not see myself letting that control go to anyone else especially when it involves my children’s well being. Another thing I don’t see happening is being a ride or die chick. As a mother, I don’t see myself being consumed by anyone else but my kids. Now, I also know what you’re going to say. “You’ve probably never felt real love before.” Ha! I have been in love before. I know how real love is, how it feels. I know it all too well. But the fact that I lost that love and will never get it back furthers my realization of being single forever. No one measures up to that man. Point blank. It’s pointless if me to even try to date. And I definitely don’t want to be “that girl” who breaks a man’s heart and turns him into a full fledge dog. I don’t need that on my conscience. I used to be extremely optimistic, but after a year and 1/2 of being single and seeing absolutely no potential, that optimism has turned into doubt. Some are blessed to find their soul mates, whereas for me *shrugs* that shit’s not for everybody. Like I said before, this is definitely not by choice. Who would deliberately choose to be lonely for the rest of their life? I would love nothing more than to be with that one person that makes me happy, but reality is that mess isn’t happening. So what if I’m single forever though? What am I really missing out on? The surprise chick on the side? The “oh I have a few kids on the way”? Yeah, keep that to y’all selves. Team Single over here!

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